I don’t know what has gotten into to me…
I don’t know what happened, I was just watching movies, two movies, to be precise. The first movie made me cry. I am sure it was because of the very explicit lines from some scenes in it. The second one, it was more like a compilation movie, which, you know, the kind of several movies being put together in one umbrella theme. I am not sure what makes me sad, made me really sad. Suddenly, I found my self burst into tears, like, really crying heavily. I remember the scene was when there was a couple of grandma and grandpa, they were walking together to the beach, just to celebrate their 63rd anniversary in silence. What the hell happened to me? I am still finding myself crying now, I couldn’t even put it into words, why? why?
I remember the last time I was being like this. It was 2 years ago, when I was kinda trapped in such a busy schedule, very busy schedule, and I got such a big responsibility, that was during the time I was appointed to be the head of our department’s annual event. I remember I was very frustrated at that time. All the crews that I had, they weren’t doing what they supposed to do, or at least what I told them to do. It was the time when I felt like I could not go on and handle this event, it was the time when I got trapped in that event’s preparation and piling school works at the same time. I remember that day, I just got back from one of the event’s meetings, I got home, but I could not go off of my car. Suddenly, I felt my cheeks getting wet, and there, I was crying heavily. I even called my mom, I told her I could not stand to be here in this city, I wanna go wherever I can, wherever except this city. I remember I said to her that I don’t wanna meet anybody, not even my closest friends, though I barely remember the reasons why. Long story short, I took some times off. I flew to Jakarta, and I did nothing there but stayed at home.
Recalling that bad memory, I still cannot figure out why I am crying insanely now. I don’t know what feeling this is, I don’t know what happened out there, whether this is a sign or something else. I am trying to stop for almost 30 minutes now, but I still cannot stop. Help, I think I need help. But I don’t even know who to call, as I cannot explain to anyone what I am feeling right now. I don’t know whether this is a form of depression that I am going through now, or is it because I am exhausted? I don’t even know what makes me exhausted if this is really because I am exhausted.
I guess I am just screwed. I cannot help myself.
this is soooooooooooooooo awesome
Panera Cares Lets Customers Set The Price
Panera Bread, the nationwide restaurant chain, has opened a new “pay-what-you-can” cafe in downtown Boston, called Panera Cares.
The concept is simple: diners pay what they can afford. So if a meal normally costs $5.00, the customer can pay that price, a little more, or a little less.
Store ambassadors greet customers when they come in to explain how things work, but it can be a little confusing.
“I don’t even know what’s going on. I’m just hungry,” a befuddled customer named Javier said.
Here’s how it works: customers order their food, just like at a regular Panera, but then the cashier tells them the suggested price. Customers can decide how much to pay, and either put their money in a donation box, or tell the cashier how much to charge their credit card.
The Panera Bread Foundation has four other Panera Cares locations in St. Louis, Detroit, Portland, Oregon and Chicago, and the founder Ron Shaich says the system works because the people who can afford to pay more, often do.
“All they have is a responsibility to do the right thing. And you know what’s amazing? So many people do,” Shaich said.
The breakdown of what people pay is about 60-20-20: 60 percent of people pay the suggested price, 20 percent pay less, 20 percent pay more.
Since opening in January, the Panera Cares in Boston has been taking in slightly more than that national average.
Food Insecurity
Panera officials say the chain already donates about $100 million in food and cash a year. But Shaich wanted to become more involved in the issue of food insecurity – the 50 million Americans and one in four children who don’t know where their next meal is coming from.
“This isn’t an issue of simply of homelessness,” Shaich said. “Twenty-five percent of people with food insecurity actually own their own homes, 24 percent are college grads. It’s endemic when you have a country that is 8 to 9 percent unemployment.”
It’s a job requirement that all of the employees at the Boston Panera Cares location understand the issue.
“We’ve all experienced food insecurity one way or another, either personally or we know someone is experiencing it,” said cashier Yetunde Bankole.
Panera Cares workers are also trained to deal with a population that is in need.
this is soooooooooooooooo awesome
Panera Cares Lets Customers Set The Price
Panera Bread, the nationwide restaurant chain, has opened a new “pay-what-you-can” cafe in downtown Boston, called Panera Cares.
The concept is simple: diners pay what they can afford. So if a meal normally costs $5.00, the customer can pay that price, a little more, or a little less.
Store ambassadors greet customers when they come in to explain how things work, but it can be a little confusing.
“I don’t even know what’s going on. I’m just hungry,” a befuddled customer named Javier said.
Here’s how it works: customers order their food, just like at a regular Panera, but then the cashier tells them the suggested price. Customers can decide how much to pay, and either put their money in a donation box, or tell the cashier how much to charge their credit card.
The Panera Bread Foundation has four other Panera Cares locations in St. Louis, Detroit, Portland, Oregon and Chicago, and the founder Ron Shaich says the system works because the people who can afford to pay more, often do.
“All they have is a responsibility to do the right thing. And you know what’s amazing? So many people do,” Shaich said.
The breakdown of what people pay is about 60-20-20: 60 percent of people pay the suggested price, 20 percent pay less, 20 percent pay more.
Since opening in January, the Panera Cares in Boston has been taking in slightly more than that national average.
Food Insecurity
Panera officials say the chain already donates about $100 million in food and cash a year. But Shaich wanted to become more involved in the issue of food insecurity – the 50 million Americans and one in four children who don’t know where their next meal is coming from.
“This isn’t an issue of simply of homelessness,” Shaich said. “Twenty-five percent of people with food insecurity actually own their own homes, 24 percent are college grads. It’s endemic when you have a country that is 8 to 9 percent unemployment.”
It’s a job requirement that all of the employees at the Boston Panera Cares location understand the issue.
“We’ve all experienced food insecurity one way or another, either personally or we know someone is experiencing it,” said cashier Yetunde Bankole.
Panera Cares workers are also trained to deal with a population that is in need.
can you tell me why
can you tell me why I feel like blaming myself for the past three weeks where there’s a wise saying “don’t be afraid to fall apart, because then you can build yourself up again the way you want it to be”? indeed, I am falling apart. indeed, I am not strong enough. indeed, I am still living my life as it is, because I simply don’t know what I want or what I am good at.
maybe
Have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe, destiny is just a word created by a humanbeing who was righting what supposed to be wrong and this humanbeing was just trying to accept it? Or was it me talking nonsense?
The Hardest Part
Ever wonder how you suddenly can hit your low? That’s a hard part.
Ever wonder how you have to change your attitude? That’s the worse part.
Ever wonder how you cannot stand up and still let yourself feel depressed? that’s the worst part.
But have you ever wonder why such things can make you very depressed and lost all what you have been thought of? that’s the hardest part, even worse than the worst.
What the hell am I talking about? I’m not entirely sure. I just feel like I lost my direction and I lost my confidence. I just got lost and trapped inside this sad and lonliness. I got left behind, so far from the others. Meanwhile I knew myself very well, that I should have been better than this. But I don’t know why all of sudden, I just lost everything. This is the hardest part. To begin a new one or to continue the path, which probably the wrong path. Either way, I knew that I’m not strong enough or brave enough to face this fear.
I hate myself.
This lovely person found this tutorial I posted for a heart shaped pie crust and she did THE MOST AMAZING JOB EVER!
Do you agree?!?!?!
I’ll make this one for you someday :)
This lovely person found this tutorial I posted for a heart shaped pie crust and she did THE MOST AMAZING JOB EVER!
Do you agree?!?!?!
I’ll make this one for you someday :)
THIS!
(Source: huether, via kattygirls)
THIS!
(Source: huether, via kattygirls)
If I could take away the pain
And put a smile on your face,
Baby, I would, baby, I would
If I could make a better way,
So you could see a better day,
Baby, I would, baby, I would.
Yeah, it’s not about what I want
It’s all about what you need.
I know that she hurt you,
But that wasn’t me
And I know, and I know sometimes it’s hard to see
That I’m where you need to be
If I could take away the pain
And put a smile on your face,
Baby, I would, baby, I would
If I could make a better way,
So you could see a better day,
Baby, I would, baby, I would.
Yeah, it’s not about what I want
It’s all about what you need.
I know that she hurt you,
But that wasn’t me
And I know, and I know sometimes it’s hard to see
That I’m where you need to be
“But I can’t spell it out for you
No, it’s never gonna be that simple
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we’d be perfect for each other”
We’d never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now.
May be it’ll take days, weeks, or months so that you realized that I have a faith in you.
“But I can’t spell it out for you
No, it’s never gonna be that simple
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we’d be perfect for each other”
We’d never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now.
May be it’ll take days, weeks, or months so that you realized that I have a faith in you.
This is my favorite part of this song:
“Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?”
A few hours later, I was still sat down in front of the tv and I felt gloomy, because I was thinking about this one-sided love story I’ve been having for almost a year now. Then… the mighty ChannelV was kinda understood me, I’m guessing it was another “conspiracy”, so that suddenly this song came up. Then I watched it, I really paid attention to it, and I realized that this is what exactly happened on the past few days between us.
Thank You God, thank you universe, for understood me in every way that he will never understood.
This is my favorite part of this song:
“Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?”
A few hours later, I was still sat down in front of the tv and I felt gloomy, because I was thinking about this one-sided love story I’ve been having for almost a year now. Then… the mighty ChannelV was kinda understood me, I’m guessing it was another “conspiracy”, so that suddenly this song came up. Then I watched it, I really paid attention to it, and I realized that this is what exactly happened on the past few days between us.
Thank You God, thank you universe, for understood me in every way that he will never understood.
